#i should have done something easier than this

[starlighttsv]

Can you do Pazzi as moms where there daughter is a little bit older and she gets bad grades and Paige and azzi help her

Bad News - Pazzi’s daughter

Sum: Saylor gets bad grades and her teacher calls Azzi

Warnings: based in 2044, a curse word lmao

Notes: was I daydreaming or something? Why is this all over the place? 😵‍💫 I didn’t go into to much detail about p & a helping her bc I didn’t really know what else to put so sorry about that.

Wc: 1.2k

Pair: pazzi x daughter!oc

Saylor’s Masterlist

“Hi is this Azzi Fudd?” A girl says over the phone “Yes, and who is this?” Azzi responds back “I’m Mrs. Smith, one of your daughters teachers. Um im calling because Saylor is failing my class and two others. We have tried to help her but it doesn’t seem to be working. She failed her test for my class yesterday and it’s not looking good for the tests in the other two classes either.” Mrs. Smith says over the phone

“What? That’s not like Saylor, she normally does really good in school.” Azzi replies confused “Thats what me and her other teachers have been talking about. We didn’t know if maybe there was something going on at home to make her not be concentrating, or maybe her friend group?”

“No, No there’s nothing going on at home. As for her friend group I don’t really know. I’ll talk to her other mom and we will try to figure it out, thank you for calling” Azzi says to mrs. smith with both of them saying byes then hanging up

Azzi sighs pulling the phone from her ear and going to Paige’s contact- not knowing if she’s gonna answer or not because Paige was at a photo shoot

“Hey Az, what’s up?” Paige says over the phone after picking up on the 2nd ring “are you busy?” Azzi asks “nah, I just left the photo shoot figured I would stop at the store and get stuff for dinner and then maybe bring home some lunch? You good with chipotle or you want something else?” Paige asks

“Chipotle is fine, but um I just got a call from one of Saylors teachers” Azzi says to Paige, “What? Is Saylor ok? Do I need to go get her from school?”

“No. No, she’s fine but she’s failing some of her classes and her teachers are worried somethings going on at home or with her friends” Azzi says while packing her duffel and starting to walk to her car

“Well nothings going on at home and she should only be talking to her friends at school. She’s still grounded. So I don’t know what could possibly be happening in her friend group at school for her to be failing multiple classes. Hey I’m gonna FaceTime you I’m about to start driving”

Azzi doesn’t answer and just waits for the FaceTime call, accepting it when it appears on her phone “maybe it’s the grounding?” Azzi says confused while watching Paige start driving and turn onto the main road

“If it is the grounding she needs to get over it immediately. She knew she wasn’t gonna get away with sneaking out, we would have found out eventually. We need to just sit her down and make her talk to us-“ Paige starts but Azzi cuts in “but that’s easier said than done”

“Exactly!” Paige starts “FUCK! What is happening with her? Is it us? Did we do something to make her start acting out? Do we need to get her like a therapist or something?” Paige stresses

Azzi has already started making her way home while Paige was going to the store. “I don’t think we’ve done anything. She started acting out like 2 years ago-“

“When we had her transfer schools.” Paige cuts in “Do you think that’s it? She’s mad at us for her transferring so she’s punishing us by acting out?” Azzi says pulling into the garage and sitting in the car

“I can’t think of anything else, can you?” Paige asks still driving to get to the store

“No, not really.” Azzi sighs “I just want our daughter back to her normal self. It’s like she’s possessed by something.” Azzi now stresses

“I get it mama, I do. I want her back too but I don’t know, maybe we do family therapy?” Paige asks pulling into a parking spot at the store and grabbing her phone from the phone holder on the dashboard

“Couldn’t hurt” Azzi says pinching the bridge of her nose “I’ll let you go I can see you just pulled into the store. Im probably gonna go take a shower and then start cleaning, let me know what you decide for dinner yeah?”

“You go it. I love you” Paige responds

“I love you too”

After a few hours of Paige and Azzi hanging out and watching movies, Saylor finally gets home and walks through the door

“Hey baby come in the living room for a few please” azzi says out to Saylor who was a few rooms away literally just walking through the door

“Give me a sec mom” Saylor shouts taking off her shoes by the front door and setting her backpack by them. Saylor grabs the emergency phone and then walks to the living room, tossing it onto the cushion next to Azzi

“What do I have to be in here for?” Saylor asks “here take a seat” azzi says pointing to the love seat across from Paige and Azzi, making Saylor look at her confused but doing it anyway

“Your teacher called, saying that your failing a few different classes” azzi started “We have to ask, are you actually struggling or are you just faking it as a way to get back at us for grounding you? Cause we can help you if you’re actually struggling or we can pay someone to tutor you but we’re not gonna do that if you’re just trying to get back at us.” Paige finishes for Azzi

Saylor just stays quiet with her head down looking at her hands making Paige and Azzi look at each other before Paige starts speaking again. “Saylor. Do you need help with school?” Paige says with a soft voice Saylor just keeps looking at her hands “bug?” Paige says still with a soft voice

Saylor takes a second before nodding her head slowly “you do need help?” Azzi asks making Saylor shake her head again

Paige and Azzi both get up and sit on either side of Saylor both hugging her “that’s all you had to say Saylor, you didn’t have to go through all that homework and tests knowing you were gonna fail. We would’ve helped you” Azzi says with her lips pressed against Saylors temple

Saylor just leans into both of them “hey, what are you struggling with?” Paige says softly

“Math, science, and history” Saylor mumbles out “well we can help you with those. Unless you want a tutor? Your choice” Paige says kissing Saylors temple while Azzi’s rubbing her back

Saylor just cuddles closer to Paige’s chest making her laugh “was that your answer?” She says amusingly making Saylor have a small smile on her face while nodding

“Alright” Azzi says giving Saylor another kiss on her forehead before standing up “you wanna help me with dinner and then after we can take a look at your homework? Maybe we can make some cookies too.”

Saylor looks up with her head still placed on Paige’s chest, and nods making Paige stand up and then pull Saylor up to her feet. “Cmon let’s go make dinner, I’m hungry” Paige says pulling Saylor and Azzi to the kitchen making both of them laugh but follow her anyways.

That’s how the Bueckers family spent the rest of their evening. Cooking dinner, baking cookies, and doing homework.

@melpthatsme

[imjustarandogirl]

Just a thing I have worked on.

A/N:It is not the completed thought I had in my mind, just a half-way done version. Any constructive criticism is welcomed. Also let me know if I should finish this.

You and Shauna had agreed with parties: they were beyond loud and filled with obnoxious people. The only reason you two even attended was for Jackie. How she pleaded and constantly asked always wore the both of us over time. Besides, it was Jackie; how could you say no to a face like hers? That was how you found yourself leaning against a wall at Jeff's house, questioning why Jackie would drag you and Shauna there. You both were doing nothing, so it all seemed like a waste of time. All Jackie and Jeff had done the whole night was make awkward small talk. They were on one of their breaks again, but you and Shuana knew they would be back together soon. It irked you knowing Jeff and Jackie treated each other, yet they still could get back together. Often, you find yourself wondering if you could treat Jackie better.

There weren't too many people, mostly the crowd of popular people from your year. Neither you nor Shauna, being introverted, saw how you fit with everyone else. Jackie, on the other hand, seemed to get along with almost everyone. Her family was well-off, so that was another factor. Above all else, Jackie was stunningly pretty. You knew it, Shauna knew it, and everyone else knew it. Despite the desire not to, your eyes always found Jackie's face in crowded rooms. Watching as her hair bounced as she spoke or how her eyes shimmered when she was excited.

You couldn't figure out why you were drawn to Jackie. Something in the back of your head told you to pay attention. You assumed it was something all friends did. You had done it with Shauna as well, so maybe it was normal. Whenever you got bored in your English class, there Shauna was. Talking with Shauna was easier than with other people; her voice was soothing to your ears. The look of her brown eyes when she stared at you was something you had come to adore. Despite considering the two of them as friends, the sensation in your stomach remained foreign and almost unsettling. You did not understand its roots, nor did you want to.

Your thoughts were interrupted by Jackie's melodic voice rising over the chatter. You watched as she started to guide people towards each other, a small circle starting to form. Your eyebrows furrowed in confusion as you silently watched. Then you saw Jeff coming into view, an empty bottle in hand. A small huff escaped your lips, so that is what tonight's game would be. Did people even still play Spin the Bottle? Although it was sophomore year, you doubted anyone played the game anymore. You would prefer to share stories or school gossip at Jackie's house.

You glanced over to Shauna, who was a little ways away from you, her brown eyes fixated on Jackie. You had no idea what went on inside the girl's head, but when you caught her staring at you or Jackie, it made you wonder. From the outside, the stares seemed like harsh glares that would melt anyone, but there was always a hidden softness laced in Shauna's eyes. There was longing and desperation hidden away in Shauna's eyes whenever she looked at you or Jackie. You tried to ignore it, the annoying feeling bubbling in your stomach whenever you met her eyes. You didn't have the right words to describe how you felt. It was a mix of frustration and joy.

Jackie then approached the two of you; her bright smile caused the same flurry of feelings in your stomach. The smile was always something saved for you and Shauna. You had never seen her look at Jeff that way, you were secretly proud of it. Jackie took one of your hands and one of Shauna's, dragging you and Shauna into the circle with everyone else. "Do not start thinking you two can start skipping out on all the fun," Jackie laughed. You looked over at Shauna, trying to gauge her feelings. You could see the slight discomfort on her face as the three of you walked over. "It will not be too bad," you reassured Shauna. She didn't have time to respond before you moved to sit in between two people you barely knew. The two were people you had seen in passing but never really got to know. Jeff settled next to Jackie, placing the glass bottle in the middle.

"I am sure we all know how to play," Jeff declared, spinning the bottle firmly. You watched as the bottle moved from person to person. The name of the bottle looked hazy during the spinning. The bottle came to a slow stop to a girl whose face or name you could not recall. You watched as the two came closer, their lips meeting. The kiss was not that long, but Jeff had a smug look on his face when they parted. Cheers erupted from some other boys, Jeff maintained a cocky smile on his face while the girl looked bashful.

The next in line was Jackie. You looked up at her, seeing a slight discomfort, and you couldn’t tell if it was from the game or because Jeff had just kissed someone. The bottle spun around, coming to a stop to the guy on your left. You couldn’t remember if his name was Michael or Steven. Multiple cheers came from the other guys in the circle as the two joined in a kiss. Something ate away at your stomach as you watched their lips join together, an uncomfortable sensation churning in your gut. You wondered what Jackie tasted like, was it her watermelon or strawberry chapstick? You quickly looked away from the pair, not wanting to witness the scene anymore.

When the cheers died down, you knew it was over. The feeling in your stomach was hard to define. Anger wasn't quite the word to describe it. You felt some irritation towards that boy, but it wasn’t full anger. Sadness also didn't fit. Watching Jackie with some random boy was displeasing but didn't provoke you to be overly emotional. More cheers and laughter could be heard from around the circle as more people went. You couldn't care for who went after Jackie, it wasn't you or Shauna, so it didn't matter to you. Before you knew it, the bottle sat in front of you. Some eyes were on you, watching for your next movement.

Your eyes briefly drifted toward both Jackie and Shauna. Jackie’s face was slightly scrunched, a frown tugging at the edges of her lips. In contrast, Shauna held a hardened stare towards you. Her deep brown eyes went from the bottle to you. You took in a short breath and spun the glass bottle. The sound of the glass bottle clinking against the floor felt deafening. You didn’t want to kiss anyone here, and the whole situation felt too awkward.

[danrifics]

[radical-fire-vixen]

stop lying. you cannot handle the actual truth, which is that humans eating meat isn’t a problem, because you hate humans more than you care about animals. you don’t even actually care about animals.

you’re contributing to women and girls developing eating disorders. but i suppose that’s a plus for you since you hate women and girls enough to shame them for eating. and you have no actual clue what is causing and accelerating climate change. you have no understanding how the carbon cycle works. you have no understanding of how biology works. why should i be nice to a moron who spouts off bullshit and has never opened a biology textbook in their life? like, why? that’s a waste of time and energy.

the truth is, eating meat is actually good for humans, because:

1) it’s the easiest way to absorb nutrients, the least costly of energy trying to digest

2) it’s the easiest way to power our brains, although you don’t use yours for anything other than bullying women and girls into eating disorders because you believe that animals should come before our own liberation

3) even herbivorous animals will chow down on meat happily because free and easy protein (look up horses eating baby birds. baby birds are the potato chips of the animal world. it would literally be easier to list what animals don’t eat baby birds than the animals that do)

4) humans eating meat has never been a problem for the planet, because if almost half a million years of munching on filets hasn’t done anything but industrialization has, then fossil fuel usage and destroying vital habitats like the tundra and the rainforests are what’s actually driving climate change, not humans enjoying a fucking steak every once in a while

5) if humans can evolve to eat fucking poisonous compounds like caffeine or capsaicin (yes those are actually poisonous compounds, plants evolved them to stop predation from animals, or to have only certain animals eat their fruit as is the case with capsaicin), then eating meat, something that humans have been doing literally forever, is truly and factually nothing.

6) eating should never be moralized because we all have to eat, and no animal would hesitate on at least chewing your bones for extra calcium and phosphorus if they could get to them. animals don’t give a fuck.

just admit you ‘prioritize’ animals over the liberation of women and girls and stay outta the fucking feminist tags. keep your cult-like ‘social justice movement’ for animals (that you don’t even understand or know anything about and gladly poison with plastic) out of our movement for female HUMAN liberation.

Some radfems seem to feel that veganism is tied in with feminism.

Please elaborate!

[wereshrew-admirer]

scratching at the walls

[sysig]

Coding woes (Patreon)

[icewindandboringhorror]

recent lounging babey images

[madrivervalleyicelandics]

Yes that’s sort of what I’m getting at, this could be “normal” & may have always been there, so I’m not even trying to moralize it or say it’s good or bad, it’s just that we NEED to get curious about it to actually know if that’s the case, & to know how best to manage symptomatic horses. If it’s something we can breed away from, that would be great to know! But it also just has implications for how we best manage individuals, if we don’t test we can’t know. Right now a lot of people will say a horse is hypermobile, and even recommend exercises for the horse, but I find strange pushback when it comes to actually checking for this disease. And ultrasounds aren’t invasive! They aren’t cheap, but MANY procedures are more cost prohibitive.

I had seen that they’re working on skin biopsies but I don’t think that’s available yet as a diagnostic test for owners to order yet…. If it is, it seems it hasn’t been available to me around here yet.

We did do muscle biopsies of my ESPA mares when we suspected PSSM2, & once I understood how invasive that procedure was, I understood why it’s not a popular diagnostic test. We had good reason to suspect PSSM with their symptoms, though, so I don’t regret the choice. A skin biopsy would certainly be easier than that 😅

My cynical guess is that breeders would need a very compelling reason to test the horses before they’d spend the money and risk tarnishing a bloodline’s reputation. With ECVM, lawsuits actually broke out over people sharing diagnostic results. Stallion owners were angry at the suggestion that their horses’ offspring had the condition, & didn’t want it to negatively impact their horses’ reputations. I recall a bit of that with Spavin, particularly if the stallions were sound & the condition didn’t bother them�� it’s tricky. What would be MOST useful is a test that would be non-invasive enough to do as part of a prepurchase exam 😅

The official recommendation is to not ride ESPA horses, but studies have shown that exercise helps slow progression of the condition. I think stabilizing exercises (like basic French classical dressage work in-hand) are a great idea, & one of the vets I work with was also talking about doing things that the horses enjoy, for their mental health as well! For example Vigri finds trail rides enriching, always has enjoyed getting out to explore in the woods. I’m primarily being more mindful about how much weight he carries for how long, & avoiding excessive repetitive pounding. We’ve definitely done our last 100 mile ride, but he enjoys his hacks & can do them on the pony line or with a light rider & I feel comfortable with that for him at this stage (his vets have also approved that level of work). Managing his weight will also be extremely important. His vet team thinks he should be able to be comfortably managed into his 20s which, really, is a decent expectation for any horse. I can’t be mad about that prognosis! But that decision is also context specific to Vigri, who gets bodysore when he’s out of work, & who shows evidence of enjoying his hacks. When it came to Sylgja, she was fully exercise intolerant at her time of diagnosis (age 5) & wasn’t consenting even to hand walks, & Skvísa was not far behind, experiencing muscle tremors after walks for example. So there is a huge range of progression & severity.

It could be a topic for a whole separate post, but I think offering opportunities for consent in training could be a huge part of managing chronic / progressive conditions like this. It’s not foolproof because horses tend to be very good about telling you what’s comfortable in the moment, but can’t really understand that doing too much now might make them sore later, so in that sense consent isn’t ENOUGH. But man… having Sylgja be pure R+ trained & VERY comfortable saying “no” is what saved her a much more painful life, & honestly the reason I kept digging to understand what was wrong with her when diagnostics kept coming back negative. There was this constant question of, maybe it’s just behavioral, maybe I’m not getting through to her, why is she like this…. But she kept saying no, so I kept trying to figure out why. When we did her ultrasound, I was warned ahead of time that it might be inconclusive because of her young age - the disease might be present but might not have broken down the tissues enough to become obvious yet. So when the results were a very CLEAR positive at age 5 both vets & I just kind of sat there in silence for a few minutes like, damn. Okay. Well. That’s that, then. I was so stunned after the ultrasound that I was sort of robotic but I remember that one of the vets took me aside and said “listen, this horse could have so easily been abused if you hadn’t listened to her. I see it every day.” Imagine if I’d sold her on, or tried to push her through it when she started to resist.

I’m only just getting to feel really okay talking about it, honestly. But there is so much to learn from the whole situation, not just for me, but already it’s helped others solve mystery cases of their own. And many horses get a better outcome than she did, if we catch this early I think there is so much we can do for these horses.

Another thing I’ve been talking about with a couple of colleagues recently is that many of us (esp in R+ circles) have made careers of fixing horses that would have been culled in the past. Again, not trying to moralize that or say it’s good or bad, it’s just the world we live in now. We don’t kill animals when they fall short of expectations, in most modern cultures - we try to work with them and find solutions. That means we WILL see and discover more conditions than we used to. Even if ESPA has always been around, these fast-progressing cases that make horses lame or provoke them to behavioral problems wouldn’t have been around long enough to really examine because they’d have been culled. Until fairly recently in history, honestly. So perhaps, as welfare improves globally and we continue to evolve our thinking to respect animals as individuals with inherent value (which I think is a good thing, to be clear!), maybe seeing more chronic disease is a part of that, just in the sense that these animals now get the privilege of a full life 🤷‍♀️ I can’t tell if that’s a positive thought or a gloomy one, which probably means I should stop for the night 😅

Since my two mares got ESPA diagnosed in 2023 I feel like everyone I know has ESPA dx’d or suspected in Icelandic horses. So all I’m gonna say here is that if you have weird mystery sensitivity, the horse is kind of reactive & weird some days & fine others & you’re ruling out a lot of common causes of pain & can’t really find muscular or chiropractic causes & the horse isn’t lame on one leg or neuro but something is just weird about the horse…..

Ultrasound those suspensories, bestie!

We just did Vigri this Fall & found that he has early signs of degeneration of his suspensories, too, but at 16 & sound this is “normal” progression of the disease (as opposed to the serious degradation of the tissues we noted in Sylgja at age 5, & her mom at 13 - I still think Skvísa probably would have progressed more slowly had I not bred her, which I’d never have done if I’d known she had the disease). Since he isn’t a mare, won’t be bred, & the current best practice for treatment is consistent, appropriate exercise, I’m responding to this DX by slowing down his workload, riding him myself less, ponying him more, having my child (who is very light) be his primary rider when ridden, & keeping up with the shoe package that’s been keeping him sound & comfy with his rotational deformities up to this point. Vigri is more comfortable / happy when in an exercise program so this makes sense for him at this level of progression, but we will be monitoring closely & re-checking. This comes w perfect radiographs (zero arthritic changes to hocks, fetlocks, etc) - we literally only US’d bc when I pulled him barefoot last winter I THOUGHT I noticed his fetlocks dropping slightly more than usual, & I wanted to see if I were crazy or not 🤡

But where I’m at w this now is I think it is FAR more common in the breed than previously reported & warrants serious examination certainly for anyone who wants to breed these horses. The prevalence in Standardbreds, pasos (disease was first discovered in pasos) etc has a lot of vets curious if there’s a connection between the DMRT3 mutation & this connective tissue disease. Worth noting as well that Vigri is of no relation to my other horses, & is actually not even from the same breeding farm. Looking back, I wish I could US Glæta… I have a lot of questions about past “complicated” horses I worked with that could be answered by this disease.

It’s super worth paying attention to because of the connective tissue involved w internal organ suspension. A friend just attended a dissection of an (suspected) ESPA horse in which the liver was found to be detatched. I know quite a few Icelandic horses that were “fine” until they suddenly died of some weird medical event involving digestion. Was it colic or something else…..?

We know this disease can affect the cardiovascular system, vision, etc. I’m certainly curious if Vigri’s intermittent difficulty pulsing down - even when his resp returned to normal right away - could be related to subclinical presentation of this disease. I’m even curious if his rotational deformities at birth might have been the earliest sign! I’m quite sure it explains his unusually sensitive skin, which rubs & chafes so easily. All of which is to say, this disease goes beyond workload / performance expectations, it’s not just a (potential) soundness problem. It’s potentially something that can negatively impact organ function.

Another interesting thing I’ve learned more recently is that research is suggesting that the bodies of these horses lay down layers of fat in unusual / unexpected places to compensate / protect the lack of healthy connective tissue. On dissection that’s apparently really interesting to see, sometimes the horses don’t even palpate or look especially fat until you get into the layers of the body. My ESPA mares did have an unusual amount of body fat & it actually complicated the muscle biopsies we did to rule out PSSM2….

Anyway this is sort of a disorganized dump of random ESPA thoughts but I haven’t had the energy or time to make more coherent thoughts for Instagram / FB & I know Tumblr doesn’t care.

Bottom line is if you’ve got gaited horses & they’re having “mystery” health or behavioral issues, you might want to consider a connective tissue disorder as a possible contributing factor! & certainly if you notice hypermobility or unusual flexion of the joints.

[mxtxfanatic]

I’m wondering something though -

When Xie Lian and the others learned of He Xuan’s background, it was made clear He Xuan had extremely bad luck.

“Although this scholar He’s family was very, very poor, he was a talented man. Since his youth, he was frighteningly intelligent and picked things up quickly and expertly. He was also widely known as a good son; there was really nothing bad to say about the guy in any respect. Unfortunately for him, he was also very unlucky. For him, nothing good ever lasted.”

Volume 4, Chapter 53 page 28

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If the Reverend of Empty words can only shout misfortune upon its victims (and their loved ones) causing them to despair so much they commit suicide, does this mean He Xuan had bad luck all on his own even without the fate switching? 🤔

Or does the Reverend actually draw bad luck to his victims? This would actually make a lot sense but from how Xie lian explains things , this isn’t how a usual venerable works and explanations about the Reverend do not explicitly state this. 🤔🤔🤔

He Xuan couldn’t have had bad luck all on his own without the fate-switching, because his fate was to ascend. However, I think a full answer to this question would need to be a meta, cause I think that a core point of tgcf is that fates are not set-in-stone from birth, that fortune is what you make of it rather than what makes you, and that we shouldn’t fall into traps of letting superstition rule our lives, thoughts, and morality. The Reverend of Empty Words specifically chose prey amongst those with great fates, and most of those people had terrible ends. The Reverend was only able to speak on Shi Qingxuan—who had a fate of wealth—once before his family masked his presence, and yet the family still went into decline and lost their fortune. Were all of those fates fake? Was Guoshi not as good a fortune-teller as he so claimed? Or is all of this more changeable than people want to believe?

[dawnthefluffyduck]

Sunday doodle (singular)

[hotsugarbyglassanimals]

even though i feel like i can confidently tell when a piece of art is generative A/I, i really don't feel inclined or really even justified calling someone out for it due to the precedent it sets - especially when artists who DO make their own pieces get caught in the crossfire for being inexperienced or making the choice to be more free-form when it comes to character design / consistency...

[ilkkawhat]

just reflecting today on the 7th poured drink tonight and recalling how when i was venting to my co-workers about yesterday and the panic attack i had and all that, she mentioned how I needed more help when I was drowning and i swear to you the immediate thing that came to mind when she said that was alan wake

[nbclover]

hehehe

[thatuselesshuman]

Me when someone says some dumb shit about my medical issues

[featherymainffins]

When I start having a panic attack about visiting my family I know it's time to go to sleep immediately no ifs no buts

[violetsareblue-selfships]

good morning!! <3